Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood

i couldn't think of a title, so the first song that came up was the title,but i changed it, b/c tere's one is so much better^6 it's from kill bill, but i can't think of when it's by Santa Esmerelda. it works for what i'm ranting about, but you can ignorethe rantings of the mad. you seriously don't have to read this, it's really for Cast, but i can't put it up at my LJ, b/c miguel watce that, and i didn't want it up at my Xanga, just b/c...or my myspace, b/c dorien, or muels has one, ad tey don't need to read this. but Cast, you read this, i need you to help me, i'm losing it again


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okay, i'm mad in more then one way, but this is about two of them

firstly, my big bro, miguel, is being a big ass bastard right now.

i know everbody has their own thigns going on in their lives. the thigns that make them mad, and stressed, but right now, i'm just abotu in over my head.

In over my head, because my mom is out of town riht now, at this very moment she's somewhre i the south atlantic, in the caribbean islads ona cruise. she's having fun, and a fairly stressless 10 day, 9 night vacation. that's all well and good, except for the little thing that is me. i'm still in high school, and she's gone right now, but because dorien, y other brother is here, she's gone.

it's all cool being able to do tings on my own rules and clock, but the problem is that i;ve got to hol this house hold together. Drien is busy wiht school, but he's in college, so it's not as bad...in a way for him...he's out of the house.

so  sixteen year old has to keep the house is a sembalence of sanity, i;ve got to keep the house together. makesure it's clean, keep up y homework, and make sure there's sometgin for us to eat, and make sure there's stuffin this house for us to use. so i'm stressed over that.

i'm also following the IB track classes, which akes for a lot of homework...al the time, so there's part one as to why i'm mad.

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back to miguel.

gawd, that boy! he works at best buy, ad somehow his paychecks got fucked up, bad, so now he's mad b/c he's not getting paid.

he's also stressed and shit b/c  our father is beinga bit too open wiht his sexual promiscuity. he's straight and all, but mig doesn't wanna know what their doing. that, and the fact that the chick is all up in the house as if she owns it, in and out of his room and such. which is seriously not good b/c mig pays rent, but mig also has no back bone to confront out father over letting this chick wander the house they way she does.

also, recently, just thursday~friday, somebody threw a rock into his car, so it's in teh shop getting fixed, and shit. and that's big $$ seriously, but who knows if his insurance an pay for it or somethgin, which isn't all that good for him and shit. he's pissed abouthtat.

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how those tow add up.

Miguel is a little bastard and keeps taking his anger out on me, and i can't deal wiht that shit anymore!

i swear, i'm going to blow up, and find someway to lock him out of thehouse, i don't knw what i'm goig to do, but his psycho ass is driving me up the wall!

get this, we needed some stuff for thehouse, but he's all tired from work and shit, and get's pissy b/c i made him take me to safeway(grocery store) so i could get a few thgins for htehouse, and then he bitches to me about doing this. but we had no salad, not enough laundrydetergent, and other general thigns fo rhte house, so i picked that up.

now cut to 5pm, in an SAT prep course, and it's in the same shopping center. and it didn't end until 8, and he thinks i should have waitied to do the shoppig unitl after the course, except for, i'm tired,i still have algebra, hoa, and journalism homework for tomorrow, so i made him take me to the store earlier. he thinks it was a waste of time making him take me to the store before, and to that shoping center 3 times, when it could have been two trips.

but you know, i didn't want to be out of the house any longer, so i was all like no, we're shopping now (at 2:30...took me an hour too). when i got home from shopping (eariler again) i also had to put the grocery away b/c he was tired. he should have gone to bed earilier, knowing him, he didn't get into ed until like, 2 or 3 in the morning..bastard... so i put away the grocerys, by myself. most of the dishes that have been sitting out for hte past, two weeks. i started the laundry, which i have to find the time to finish this week. i decided to wash the winter clothes b/c they smell like moth balls, and need to be cleaned. and i had to go to my clas, and eat something b/c all i had had to eat before then were a bunch of 'fun sized' twix(twix kick ass)

and then, when we get back hre, he's all like 'now why didn't we go to the store after the class?' i was all like 'i have homwork for tomorrow' then he was all like 'then next time , drive yourself' then he went to the basement.

i'm all like 'bitch! i would, but ihave no license'

the bitch he is! as if other's don't have their own problems, te bitch! he pisses me off all the time. i swear, i'm going to blow up and tell him not to take his shit out on me anymore. he's always done that, but that's more shit that i can't deal wiht right now.

the ramblings of the mad, are over.

artistic coolness, i have a purpe marker for rhay's hair, so now it may actually look purple and not a nasty blue color.:yea!: and otherness, i drew Sprio in his dragon form and how to make a dragon Mar style^^ the lines and such are all crap, but that's okies, i as only fucking around when i drew it anyway.

and i have n idea for a halloween/fan art thing. three of my charas in pandect contumes^^ that i'll tr y to fin ish this week, but i still need a referance for delia, why her? b/c rose sucks pocky..the bad kind.

well, i'm in a better mood now, so...time to go thorugh my messages, and then dig through my homework, and mebby i'll be done by midnight^^